where are you?

another crazy day in the life of our unsuspecting character, Kiwi Vergara..

ugh. im so depressed right now. havent talked to bebsie for this day and maybe a few more to come. how i wish that by some act of magic or God( please Lord, please..) her pc gets fixed so that it would end my long agonizing wait of just hearing her voice. it seems like forever without niki around to talk to. it tends to get lonely. sigh.

didn't get to train for jiu jitsu this day and i was looking forward to training at jons place. he and renzo even asked me if they could hitch a ride with me but jon in the end backed out and cancelled the training. that left me and renzo looking for some chow and we ended up at flaming wings in bf. my God! those wings are the best. ive been there frequently and have been quite aquainted with the owner already. hopefully sometime in the future, i'd bring bebsie over there for aome pigging out moments and then off to someplace for some good old fashioned quality time.

tomorrow i'm meeting up with some of my old friends, kd and franz. i've been dying to see them since i seriously need to keep my mind from missing niki so much. i don't wanna get that depressed. i remembered that the last time i was with them was when i was perparing my gifts for bebsie.. hehehe.. that was fun..

again, im missing her. the thought lingers on my mind too much. im worried sick since i don't really know whats happening to her. thats what makes what i feel a living hell. wheres the liquer when you need it?